March 16, 2004

I want to believe...

Basically, it comes down to this: I'm tired of being inside, of getting the joke. I no longer wish to understand how that thing works, releasing me from my compulsion to explain it to you. I just want to be amazed at the collective fury of the spinning clockwork. I want to walk away shaking my head, thinking, "Damn, how'd they do that?"

I think it may be the solution to my continual dissatisfaction, this blissful ignorance. Just let life wash over me, be of the water, instead of trying to stay on the raft.

I keep telling myself to just go toward the light, but all the while my brain is calculating the wattage of the bulb.

Gack.

Posted by krudman at March 16, 2004 11:24 PM
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